If the people that make you feel certain emotions in your dreams can make you feel those emotions in real life if you run into them or are lucky enough to know them. Probably not since your dreams are your own, but maybe somehow. I remember everything about that dream except who the girl was, but she made me happy. For once. Even if it was just a dream, it was nice for a little while. I wish I remember who you were.
My brother has run into a lot of my friends and apparently they’ve all been asking about me. I kind of just disappeared I guess. I wasn’t the most popular person, but I talked to a lot of people and maintained close relationships with a good amount of people. Starting last year that all kind of changed though. Everyone tried to get into contact with me and get me back out, which was nice for a while. People change as they get older though and just like most of last year, currently I just kind of want to be left alone. I used to text a lot of people almost all day and now you’re lucky if I even reply to one of your texts (not because I’m cool or anything but because I don’t text much). Some people have even gotten mad at me for my seemingly complete 180 degree turn of my social habits. My family has noticed too and still tries to push me to go out and hang out with someone. Am I lonely? Maybe. Is it depressing? Surprisingly no, but there are times. I go out and eat and skate with either Alex or Branden every now and then though. Generally though, you can call me a shut in. All in all, I like being alone. The saying ”No one likes a loner” comes to mind. I care and I don’t care at the same time. I don’t sleep much some days and some I sleep too much. I think I’m becoming a nicer person though which I actually care about a lot. I don’t receive a lot of kindness, but I definitely want to be a source of kindness for anyone I may run into when I’m out and about. Its weird, I’m literally tired all of the time. Even when I get a good night sleep. Its not the same as being lazy (trust me I would know).
The first picture is me and my twinbrother when we were 3 years old. The second picture is me on my brother’s funeral. He was 18 years old and killed himself. I don’t care if this ruins your blog. I want you to reblog this and make a statement.
The first picture is worldfamous. Even Kendall Jenner posted it on her instagram account.We were on the news because no one knew that the picture was 15 years old. But people need to realize that life isn’t as pretty as the picture tells us. Life is cruel. Just like our society. And I’ve lost my best friend because of it. Teenagers are suppose to have fun, instead of thinking about killing themselves.
I hope this will get to Kendall Jenner and she’ll defend my statement. Because no one will probably listen to me…
Being a twin this completely wrecked my heart.